As things begin to loosen after this past year of social regression I fear I’ve lost all confidence in my ability to have face-to-face conversation. When I do, I walk away feeling as if I’ve stumbled through it. Like my mouth has moved and words have come out but not feeling as if they made any sense. I’m not sure how to start a conversation properly or what to talk about. And, it all just feels so forced and unnatural to me.
This, combined with my natural introversion makes me feel as if I should just be quiet and not say anything at all but then I fear I may come off as rude or aloof or…
Basically, it’s made me super self conscious and I apologize to anyone who happens to run into me in real life.